The Past Is The Past

I will never have respect for a female or a male who have hurt someone and then try to come back in their lives. I just can’t. I understand the whole thing of forgiving,(cool) but … I don’t think I would ever see myself going backwards with someone who took me for granted and them some.

For some odd reason, once things go South in ones life, they tend to want to maneuver their way back in. HELLO, remember the time when you didn’t want me? The time when you did me wrong ? The time you kept bringing up the past ? … Ehhh… Nahh. I’ll pass.

I say this because I look at people’s situation and can’t even fathom doing that.

A few years ago, I was in lust of someone… He was fun for a while… and then, he began to treat me like shit …. Fast Forward to now, he sees I am happy, I have lost some weight, he wants me back. I laugh. I simply laugh and keep it moving.

I have found peace. I have found happiness. I don’t believe in moving backwards. I believe that when time is up, it’s up and lets move forward.

 

-A

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Insecurities

To say that I don’t have insecurities, I’d be lying. Who doesn’t? I believe that even the most famous people in the world may feel this way or have felt this way before about one thing or another.

Have you ever had that one thing that triggered your insecurity and made you feel lower than usual ?

Don’t get me wrong, I know that I am a beautiful woman, I know that I am blessed beyond measure when it comes to certain things, but …. I tend to find myself digging up those insecurities that I thought I got rid of long ago.

I never like to say it aloud, I never want to admit it, because when you say you’re “insecure” one may take you as weak, and that is one thing that I believe I am not. I am secure in many areas as well as strong in many ways….

But … today, I have come to realization that this is something that comes and goes with me. One minute I feel on top of the world and the next, I find something wrong, and I HATE that!

I have my moments to where I just want to cry because I want to bury these things and have them never arise again.

Is this something that comes along with being a woman ? or being a human being in general ? Is this something that everyone deals with at some point in their lives ? I just want to know. I just want to know that I am not alone with feeling this way.

On the outside, it’s funny because I stand strong, tall and confident to many, but on the inside, I feel beautiful as a butterfly but weak as one that will eventually succumb.

Being insecure is something that I am not proud of by far. It’s something that I don’t want to admit to, but I am admitting it. As a woman, it’s something that I want to overcome. I will be 25 soon, and I want this to be something that I can leave behind me. I want to stand tall, confident and proud. I want to know and understand that it’s ok to feel this way because everyone is insecure about something but it’s also ok to know that I am fine. I am more than I give myself credit for. It’s ok. I will be ok. Everything will be ok.

-A

Bedroom Talk :: How To Keep It Spicy & Sexy

Don’t be afraid to go there ! … Don’t be afraid to let out your seductive side in the bedroom. Don’t be afraid to let that alter ego come alive and you WORK IT OUT ! …

My friends always ask me “How do you keep it spicy in the bedroom” .. My answer … Honestly, TRY NEW THINGS ! … BE OPEN ! LET OUT YOUR INNER HOE as I always say. lol.

When you have “routine” sex or “planned” sex and it is the same place, same moves… you better believe that it’s going to get old REALLY fast ! …

Be SPONTANEOUS ! … Forget the bed . Hell, go for the table, the floor, the kitchen counter. Make that pit stop at the store and do it in a parking lot if you will. Go for romantic night on the beach and have sand down your back while doing it until the sun comes up… BE FREE. SPICE UP YOUR LIFE.

Ladies :: Don’t be afraid to take control. It’s ok to show your man your “nasty” side. Nasty and Pleasure can work out in more ways than you think.

Forget “Ugh that’s nasty” or ” I would never ” or “I don’t do this, I don’t do that” … Forget ” I like it soft, not rough ” … It’s ok to change it up. Let him pull your hair, you can always wash and flat iron that weave back. It’s ok to be turned on by porn, It’s ok to moan, and scream and make the neighbors know his name. It’s ok to go back and forth with who is in control. Do things to make HIS eyes roll to the back of his head because you tried that new trick on him.

Put on that sexy lingerie, cater to your man, tease him and show him what’s coming. Do something out of the ordinary that he won’t be expecting …. Show him what you’re working with.

Sex is great of course … but … when you spice it up, change things around, it can always be better and take you to a place that you only imagined.

-A

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25 : The Age Of Self Happiness

In one week I will be 25 years old. DUN…DUN..DUN…

As I sit back and reflect on my life and all that I have done, I must say I have come a long, long, long way and it feels good.

When I turned 21, I thought that was the highlight of my my life … BUT  boyyyyyy …. that was only the beginning !

Most people say 25 means you are getting old and that is the time and age where you need to begin to settle down, (which may be true for some) .. BUT … none-the-less I feel 25 is the age where I will learn about the REAL ME.

I believe 25 is the age where I will begin to take a step in doing more for myself and letting everything fall into place rather than stew.

For years I have spent the majority of my life worrying about others and their happiness… don’t get me wrong, I don’t mind doing that at all …. but… I want 25 to be “The Age Of True Happiness, The Year For Me”

I want to live young, wild and free. I would like to be able to travel with no worries, get up and move if I want, party with no regrets, have late nights and early mornings, while still being able to focus on myself and handle my responsibilities at the same time. Just call me … WONDER WOMAN ! … because I plan to do it all !

I have gone around and asked many people their view of what it means to be 25 and how has 25 made or broken them.

Surprisingly, most have said the same thing ” Enjoy it ” this is the time to really embrace life and do what YOU want to do. You’re half way to 50.

I am taking that in! … As much as it sounds great to be tied down and have a family, when the time comes for it, it will happen. Enjoying life to the fullest is what I should be doing.

I plan on clasping my 20s with positive vibes and self-love.

25 will be the year of recognizing me. 25 will be the age that I will accept myself for what I am and embrace who I am. 25 will be the age of true happiness. Dammit… 25 will be the year of AWESOME and great things to follow !

CHEERS :: TO 25 !!!

-A